Thought's of the Insanely Random

September 22, 2007

2008-09-22T15:48:00.000-07:00

Oh geez, I'm pretty fudging bad at writing here.
LMAO.
And believe me ALOT more has changed.
LOL.

Well me and Jakob [not his real name by the way] broke up AGAIN.
And this time I think it's over.
FOR GOOD.

And I've moved on to someone who I'll call,
Simon IDK LMAO.

Anyways, we've been dating for about 3 weeks.
With a minor lapse somewhere in between.
LMAO.
Let's just say he's like the guy version of me LMAO.

I'm very involved in school now,
So much so that there is not a single day that I don't have to stay after school LMAO.
There's Color Guard [band], Gay/Straight Alliance, and building a Solar Car with tech club.
Yes I know, I am a dork LMAO.

And if I do have some time to myself me and Jes usually just go watch the soccer players =]
Or football.
While they're either shirtless or wearing tight pants.

BUTTOCKS!!!
=]]

Anyways, I guess I should be starting my Engineering project. =p

Comment and I shall respond thee. =]

XOXO
LOVE YAH!

August 27, 2008

2008-08-27T11:49:00.000-07:00

Whoa.

I'm sorry I haven't written in soooo long.

I've missed you guys!

Anyways,

ALOT has happened.

Like, OMG me and Jakob got together...

AGAIN.

And hopefully this time,

It'll last.

LMAO.

Anyways, I've been so bored this summer,

And it's gonna be over in a week.

But anyways,

A few of you peeps commented...

So I guess I owe you a reply:

Sonic: Well, maybe you should try them,

They make you smell better.

And mmhm I bet you are.

Clandestineduck: No it is not.

And anyways, it doesn't matter now lol.

Meheheh: Now I do. =]

Anyways, now that I gots a cpu I can write here more often.

I love you all.

PEACE

XOXO

May 2, 2008

2008-05-02T03:19:00.000-07:00

Hehe hi. =]
LMAO.
I know that the last post was somewhat...interesting.

But yesterday was soooo boring.
*I'm not writing about today because it's 6:19 am.*
All we did was have English. *BLEH*
Then we went to some stupid symphony and then we ate pizza.
Oh, and we had art.
Now doesn't that sound like the most fun in the world.
The only good thing that came out of it was that after-school I sprayed all the guys with Old-Spice.
LMAO.
But honestly,
That is the one way guranteed to make me melt.
WEAR OLD-SPICE!!!
Lol.
You'll defy smell delish.

Anyways, I guess I oughta respond to a few of you so here goes:
Wooty: LMAO. I guess that's what they call it when a guy's tongue is down a girl's throat.
Sonic: Wow. And I barely survive in those classes. But any guy choosing to abstain is either a true romantic...or gay. So which one are you?
Kingxcxzurr: I'll go back as soon as I can. And don't you think I know that about guys already. My best guy friend said there was a girl with large boobs that he wanted to do. He said he would fuck it then chuck it. =P Guys are pigs.
Sonic: Again, wow.
Clandestineduck: Okay, first of all, I love you too. But the 4 guys don't count because we were playing spin the bottle. And the only reason the etiquette ball incident happened was because I had like him for a really long time. I mean come on, I met him 4 weeks ago already. Don't you think I waited enough lol.

Hehe. Anyways, enough of that.
There was one remotely exciting thing that happened yesterday.
And it wasn't even fun because it was a dare.
I kissed a guy in my class...
OMG!
LMAO JK.
But yeah,
It was more awkward than anything really.
And it was all Jes' fault.
Jk.

Anyways, I have to go catch the bus soon.
So peace out babes. <3

Love you always and forever,
And I know you feel the same way.

XOXO

April 30, 2008

2008-04-30T13:28:00.000-07:00

Again, I'm sorry that I can't post as much as I'd like to.
Anyways, my problems are a bit better now.
My parents still fight and still talk to me about it like I'm a third party.
But I honestly don't care anymore.
I'm too busy with my own things to worry about them right now.

In response to all of you:
Wooty: I know that it isn't a way to get attention. And I never even tell them about it, one time when my mom asked about it I said that they were cat scratches from my friend's cat. I stopped for now and hopefully won't do it again because I now have a hobby to keep me busy. BOYS!!! Lmao. <3
Clandestineduck: Yeahh right. If I ever said that to my parents I would probably be slapped all the way to Cuba. Lol.
Cosmo: Lol wow. Me and Jakob are over now [see below].
Mitt+Token: Thanks. I love you.

And BTW me and Jakob are over.
And I am so proud of myself because I got over him all by my lonesome.
Bad thing I started to like 2 other guys...
WHO BOTH HAVE GIRLFRIENDS!
I thought that the guys were sweet and thoughtful and w/e.
But I ended up kissing them both. =[
I highly regret it...[kinda].
Except for the fact that they were both hot.

But anyways, I have been going to etiquette classes.
OOH HOW EXCITING!
Lol.
I've been doing okay.
But not great.
I got kicked out of the etiquette ball last friday.
For, "indiscreet contact with the opposite sex."
AKA a guy's tongue was down my throat while his hand tried to go up my dress.
LMAO.
And the sad part about it was that I didn't even get kicked out because of that...
I got kicked out because I was supposed to stay in the ballroom.
LOL.

And I'm excited because I broke my kissing record.
My last record was 2 guys in 1 week.
But during April Vacation I kissed 5 guys in 1 week.
YAY ME!
Lol jk.

Anyways, tell me what's going on in your lives.
I'm bored as always and will probably fall in lust again sometime this week lol.
Ta Ta for now.

Love you always and forever,
And I know you feel the same way.
LMAO.

XOXO

April 2, 2008

2008-04-02T12:57:00.000-07:00

Sorry that I haven't been posting lately.
I'm back home and have no computer.
Right now I am at the library so yeahhh.

Anyways, many of you are wondering what happened with the Jakob/David dilemna.
And I am happy to say that it has been solved.
I ditched David because he is a sick, disgusting, pervert and I never want to talk to him again.
I have a nice relationship with Jakob and I still love him to death.
We are happy with the way things are between us.
And even though we aren't officially dating,
We are extremely close and happy together.

I have a couple of responses to a lot of you.
Sanyo: I am not a horny dog f.y.i. I am just a boy-obsessed girl, which is very entertaining to my friends. =]
Anonymous: I was wondering the same thing. And yes I am pretty happeh.
Cosmo: Wooow. =]
Malicia: Who do you mean? And why thank you, you're pretty lovely yourself. =]
Ana: You know I'm happy now and he's not THAT much of a jerk anymore. =]
King: HUH?!

Sadly enough, I have a new issue to deal with.
Even though I am happily in love and enjoying almost every minute of my life right now,
Something is still wrong.
Many of you know the "STAIRS" analog that "Duck" made.
And I am having urges to "fall" again.
I know I shouldn't and its wrong,
But my parents are starting to fight again, and I am obviously hated by a few people right now.
I don't know what to do.
I know my friends try to stop me,
And I want to stop myself, but it is the only way that I can't feel what's going on around me.

At night, I have to listen to my parents scream at each other for the dumbest reasons.
And then they drag me into it.
They try to get me to decide who's right in the battle.
All I want to do is sit in my room and cry.
Please help me.

Even though I have my problems, I still love you all.
XOXO
Koreyy =]

February 22, 2008

2008-02-22T23:42:00.000-08:00

Sorry, thought I was going to be able to re-post yesterday,
But I wasn't able to.
Well, nothing really happened yesterday.
Lucky I haven't had to talk to David yet.
Because I really don't want to.
I decided however, to tell you my choice.

I decided that I really shouldn't pick either of them.
I know most of you expected me to pick Jakob.
But, if I had, he still wouldn't have wanted a commitment.

In response to comments on Wednesdays blog:
Sanyo: I really don't care what you think.
Aurora: Thank you.
Cosmo [even though I deleted it]: Again with the offyish comments. LOl.

Today I had to go to work with my cousin Mimi.
But, I did not mind it at all.
I worked at a concession stand for a play.
The play was done by a theater group and it was Peter Pan.
I have to admit that Peter Pan [a senior in HS],
And one of the Lost Boys [a freshman in HS],
Were really really hott.

But, I think I screwed it up with Peter because when he came to get a snack,
I asked him what role he played,
Even though he had told me before the play.

But anyways, I'm returning to my homestate tomorow.
Hopefully.
And I get to see one of my best friends with BRACES!

Birthday is in 2 days and I can't wait for it.

BTW, I might get a little drunk [LMFAO],
But I promise not to fall down ANY stairs.
You know the two types I'm talking about.

Write more tomorrow,
Luv you guys.

XOXO

February 20, 2008

2008-02-20T21:17:00.000-08:00

Well, I got a few good suggestions today.
Renn, thank you for the advice.
I honestly think that you gave me the best advice.
You helped understand so many different aspects of the situation.
And I think I know what to do now.
Also wanted to thank Johnny [even though I deleted it],
Malicia, Anonymous, Cosmo [bad choice], and Dr.Phil.
However, I'm not going to tell anyone my choice.

Today was a pretty normal day.
Took my cousins took get haircuts,
Went on a college tour [sounds dorky I know],
And went swimming.
Anyways, I sort of had a melt down towards the end of the day.
I am sorry to anyone that witnessed that.
I am sometimes too sensitive.
A few people now know a secret that I kinda didn't want out on the circuit.
It's sort of personal, so I won't mention it to anyone that hasn't already heard it,
But, to the people that did hear it.
Please keep it to yourself, even though I don't know many of you.
I wouldn't want that getting somewhere it shouldn't be. =[

Anyways, I think that when I get the chance,
I will talk to my choice. =]

Other than that, I had a pretty good day.

And btw, my meltdown in the unofficial blog is a good thing because;
It shows you how much I hate people who judge.
And you got to see the human side of me,
Not just the forum whore side. =[

Still kind of pissed off.
Post new blog tomorow. =]
BYEZ I LUVS YOUZ ALLZ =]

February 19, 2008

2008-02-19T21:36:00.000-08:00

Today was the day people started to notice my blog.
To help you guys better understand yesterday's post,
I am not a virgin.
I know it's hard to believe because I am younger than a lot of the readers.
But it is true.
Anyways, to the person that commented the blog;
I had thought of choosing Jakob before,
But like I said, he doesn't want commitment;
And everytime I see him flirt with someone or talk like that,
It hurts because it makes me think that I mean nothing to him.
And yesterday I forgot to put that David don't me something I couldn't believe.
When I was just about to give him a chance,
He tell's me [apparently with no guilt whatsover];
That he had fucked a girl that day.
I couldn't believe that he could actually tell me that,
And still expect a relationship to be brought up by that.

Today I had to stay at my cousin's house all day and babysit because she had to work.
I was online all day and was basically fine until David signed onto AIM.
He immediately started flirting,
And even though I tried not to, I flirted back.
And at one point in the conversation,
He admitted that we wanted to have sex with me.
And that he would like to do it the next time we saw each other.
I am seriously confused and need help on how to approach these guys.
I know that plenty of people have read this blog,
Because I saw you discussing it.
And I could really use some advice.
You don't need to sign up to comment and I would love if you did.
Please help.

I am stuck between two guys.
The first [Jakob] was and still is my first and only love.
However, [David] excites me and challenges me in a way that no one else ever has.
I don't know who to pick.
And if I don't pick anybody, how do I stop flirting and confront them?

February 18, 2008

2008-02-18T23:53:00.000-08:00

Well, today was a pretty normal day.

I went to the mall, bookstore, supermarket.

Stuff like that.

Seems like a normal day right?

Well, it wasn't.

The only reason for that however, is because of the fact that I couldn't stop thinking about 2 things.

Or should I say 2 people.

The first is my ex-boyfriend who I'll call Jakob.

And the other is a new friend who I'll call David.

Anyways, the first broke up with me because school was ending and we wouldn't be able to see each other at all during the summer.

The second I met through a friend and we've been getting awfully close lately.

Well, I came to TX to visit my cousin thinking I was going to have fun since I was single.

But, I was wrong.

Because, lately Jakob has been acting more like a boyfriend then anything.

And when I talked to his friend about it, he said that Jakob really cared about me,

and we were basically dating but that he didn't ask me out because that's just not him.

I instantly felt guilty and felt that I had a commitment between us.

However, I have been getting awfully close to David and feel that we could have a relationship between us soon.

But, I am convinced that all David is really after, is a physical relationship to fill his sexual needs.

David is also much older than I am, but he has already talked to me about our sexual relationship.

I am very confused as to do right now.

Also, I forgot to mention that I am not the type of person who confronts.

For example, my friends were trying to get me to confront Jakob about his feelings toward me.

But whenever they told me to, I would chicken out.

I could really use some advice.

Please help me.

I can barely sleep at night thinking about these two.

I like them both, but I don't want to see them both without commitments because that would make me feel like a slut.

Please give any advice you have.

I'll appreciate it all.